Disconnected

Yes things have been complicated around. Picture 90s to be more simpler? Stop yourself from running, pause and read this. 

The essense of simplicity lies with these misjudged parameters. Its the simple confusion of you getting used to them around you that their purpose have turned out to be more materialistic. 

Smell the beautiful fragnance of the rememberance around you. Is it the wet earth? Or is it a memory of the past picturing you with the feel of missed touch. Dont let this thing get onto you. 

As I said pause for a moment, close your eyes, take yourself back to innocence. Move your hands slowly in air, feel the touch you can sense. Bring in the patience to touch and feel every life around you. 

> You looking your tongue in the mirror colored orange after having orange candy 

> Your first day at school 

> The cricket match where you feel you made a difference 

> Watching your favourite band live

> Feeling of seeing someone smiling at the very moment you pictured them to.

............

Complicated is it? Observe how simple it was for you to feel it.

Heads = Tails. Reverse Polarization

You called for heads and it tails you.
Just look around you for a second in a crowded vicinity. Every life around you has a second to breathe and understand the problem and let go. Its just not you under the pressure of your own tensions, the world around you behaves in equal sense. So once you go in your own thoughts the world around you seems strange and mute. Eventually the things around you face substantially less impact at the point of your pain relatively. Nevertheless the pinch is equally the same. You are driven by the situation that drives your mind to not react to it like an ultimate bang! (as the previous pinch) which is still pertaining and influencing you. You ignored the sense of the pain coz its relatively less, weird but true.

You called for heads and it heads you up.
A smile on a kid's face to get what he desired is touch of innocence. May be I taking you around the loop of the time when things were just extending hands away, that wouldn't have been fun to achieve. The moment of tough times to achieve something is really the one that teaches us to smile. Once we get that, the easy brain makes you forget for the small happiness that you would have achieved during the same fraction of your life. This ignorance is just relative to the massive happiness of extravagant, the one you achieved.
Wait a second, Isnt this Reverse Polarized Image of Tails? What just happened?

You tossed and its in the Air
Neutral Sense of Ignorance and Optimistic Smile of Belief. Small happiness to look forward to.


I never asked for heads or tails when I tossed the coin in the air......

Since Its really difficult to stop thinking

How does a thing loose its value?

Day 1, thing shines as new, emotions are well intact and the excitement peaks up the adrenaline thrust to prove different, but its still new. Day 10, You make yourself comfortable to the shiny new thing in the market and start getting adjusted with it. Day 25, you conclude by making it your habit to have it around you. You are enjoying the new shiny thing. Day 90, The thing is just lying somewhere and you are just least bothered about it. Day 120, You find a replacement for it.

So how did it actually loose its value? Whenever we get something new, the new thing does have a value in our mind. What matters is that you are convinced for it to have an importance. Gradually as the things move on, you realize that you just hyped it to some extent and this continues until you run into an infinity loop of finding another replacement which lights up in your eyes and you desire to have it.

Look at Day 1500 or Day 2500 or Someday when you open up your old carton stacked and ignored. You unfold the folds of the top cover with a smile to realize the regaining value of old shiny thing. Ironic!

Since Its really difficult to stop thinking

Confidence Breakdown.

As I stood up from my chair, I walked across the white board which imprinted a genuine piece of invention. The logic behind the equation was clear and it missed a missing piece of the puzzle. The red color on the white board contrasted with the plain background. The thought was to clear up the equations and restrict the values to zero which just went vague with the Denominator of 0. A piece of this crafted equation was messed up pretty badly. "Whats going on? Just the last leg. Finish it damnit", I said to myself.

Just from a little distance my colleague shouted, 'lets call it a day!'. I generally drove back home with him and two other guys. I immediately replied back nodding to his statement. I desperately needed more time for this.

Nearly ten minutes went down since he stated to leave for home. I was still at the same piece of the problem but what got worse, the crawling to the last leg of the race was taken aback with a pits stop in midst. I erased a few numbers without even thinking of the consequence. 'Ahh... I wished for it to complete before we left', told my friend. He just smiled back. 'Well I think you shouldn't break your head on the problem at the end of the day', he replied. Somewhere he was right.

When you so desperately want something to work, you would do anything for it. I couldnt keep myself resting and believing the problem wasnt figured out. I knew the final solution, I was inventing the path to it. I thought of it just as I hit the bed; right before catching sleep; moments after I woke up. There was this faction of time, and it struck me: I was forgetting the earlier part of the equation, the numbers were fading. I started to look more confused on the problem. As an analogy, think of closing in the dark spaces without anything stated there. The purpose for you being there is unknown. So how did you reach there and what lies ahead? I was smirking at myself. This was rock bottom of my confidence!!.

When I reached back at my desk, I was at the same place but the things had changed. I made myself realize one thing, 'I have hit the worst of this. All I can do is bounce back from here'. A food for self regaining.
Whether I got the solution to my equation became a different story after all.

Colorblind

The fading effect in the movie is on purpose. The blur of white and a sudden colorful exposure would be a perfect contrast in the initial scene of the movie.

The color white symbolizes the motive of peace and calmness. On the contrary, the black would be extreme, repulsive, oppressive and a sign of obsessiveness. The black would drive you to the shades of darkness where you would expect the unexpected. The shift of the time, the rotation of the earth, the day changing to the night, the leaf drying from green to gray everything has a color and certainly it changes over a period of time.

If you are trying to catch up on Author's thought of co-relating it to the human's errand then the judgment is completely mistaken. The point is not to bring in the similarity or prove the timely effect on human but to pin the color shift and their effect on us. How about this, the difference between the 2 extremes of the colors is so distinctively defined that the impression is justified by just a glance of either. The Darker would be evil and the Lighter would be calm. We want the latter but the former is more attractive, isn't it. So are we color blinded?

The power of colors : http://www.buzzle.com/editorials/1-13-2005-64166.asp

I see the BLUE sea!!!

Navigating myself through the deep narrow lane, seeing people all around, questioning myself 'How difficult is it to understand them?'. The answer was a blank space. The question didn't ring any bells.

Evading from this deep stained misled thinking, I headed back to the square one. The mood was easy to pass with the music worth. The evening mystified well. The unexplained, not forgotten, stayed behind the uneasy part of me.

The following morning I realized the answer existed in something which belonged to me, my observation. It wasn't so simple to get it straight. I looked around, I observed individuals amongst the masses; read their faces and understood their simple, fair and innocent judgmental emotions which eased out so peacefully on them.

Particularly the one, i couldn't forget, an old man in white kurta, with traditional dhoti, standing straight with white mustache rounded near his old wrinkled cheeks. He stood still, smiling proudly with heavy load on his head.

"Now, Do you see the same BLUE sea that I see?" :-)

2 Minutes!

2 Minutes!! The easiest way to get off the hook with something you precisely want to avoid. Probably getting the things straight and easy was never an answer in life. The reasoned always wanted to question, the excuse was just few minutes away or like the topic suggests, Just 2 Minutes away.

Is the point of Question an Excuse worth 2 minutes or to test the patience? Probably, An Impatient guy like me would take those 2 minutes as an excuse to get rid of the situation. But like I remember, way back in 1998, badminton court near my house, waiting for my turn to go to the court and play some 'Smash Hits', Arjun mentioned me being completely one who wouldn't agree to my statement above.

So where have I gone wrong?
What is this urge?
What is this Speed?
Its so difficult to track it.
Is it so difficult to slow down...................

But as the fate driving the time line is just questioning my old skills, probably asking me to hang in there and not ruin something precious. Your never know, Probably these 2 minutes are 'Quite' relaxing!.... :)

Ultimate 'B'

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"I am Trying to tune to a particular channel. All I can hear is just noise and its so regular!! Stupid Radio".
--

Think of this, the river knows its path. It sincerely does the job of carrying everything that comes in its way. The confusion doesn't exist there. Now relate yourself to this current flow, of this stream. You have just carried your thoughts to the Level 1. Your level 2 is what you need to figure out.

The point is still not clear, isn't it. "Author, The topic is in no relation to what you talking about." So, let me put the ball in your court and ask you this, "In past couple of years, How much time you have devoted to yourself??" (Avoid relating your common life strings to this as I would sincerely ask you to read the second para above to escalate your thoughts).

Relax,Realize,Refresh! See something different in things around you! How have you imagined world to be changing. Picture the Xsy-Y-Zie co-ordinates of your mind and learn to apply the Complex-Yet-So-Simple functions to it. Its easy for you to step up to the Level 2 and you know that is the answer to your Ultimate 'B' :-)

My Personal Doze of Heroin

The blog kept stale for a while. I kept myself preoccupied with something which is never to late to get used to, an Addiction.

"Upstate, cloud cover and a story so strange, full of expressions and thirst covered in midst of blue, black and white. Bloodshed none, but yet it was the rush for it. The quench of thirst was equal in half, one for the rush and one the love. Every sunny day it kept on disappearing, the gems weren't worth the display to the needy and selfish remains of humans."

"He knew he was taking a risk, she wasn't one of them. The smell of her hair and the constant ciphers her brain was talking, it was difficult for him to part. He knew he was vegitarian. His survival was just on animal's blood, but there something missing ..."

I spectate this story daily, wishing to see a new expression; a new gem; a new motive. That defines my addiction, what is yours?

Smile Out Loud !!

Fading out of the darkness, relaxed motions of the hands I could feel. I could sense them moving, bending, folding. The immediate rush of blood through the hands pinched me.

How valuable these asset are: dipped in the mud to shape the crafts, folding together to respect the almighty, tapping fingers to background music, clapping to extent of recognition and not to forget the trembling offsets proving the uneasiness.

While typing this, my palms rested calm and my fingers are doing the talking. A pop up appears on the screen(right bottom).
The window says, "Hey, How was your day?". The picture next to the text seemed familiar to me. I remembered sharing the same taste of music and I could also recognize the constant smile coming in the form of typed expressions. The mystery of not knowing each other and yet trusting encouraged me to reply back. The Day 2, conversation became a record bagging 200 minutes top, yet it was so difficult to let go the keyboard. The acquaintance wasn't the term to be used anymore. I knew a little more attached to Her!

*Unexpected power, I could understand what had to come in and sometimes what were to exit. In her presence, I couldn't figure out this, indeed it acted wierd and the results were pretty unexpected for both. Though, Angel as I term her now, did her magic and she had to exit!! :-)

In Trance

To complete this post, I need to dive myself in that unknown state. The point, where focus is certainly not an issue, it drives itself, separating you from the reality, putting you behind a crystal clear glass. In this state, I could see what is happening to everything or everyone around me, but the control was out of my hands.

------!-----
Its Tuesday Morning, the morning assembly and the chirps of the birds from the trees in the west. The surrounding sets a U-Shaped, red colored tall architecture covered by 'Ashoka' trees from the front and the open ended space met the hockey ground.

Observing my feet, I realized, old black polished shoes on white cemented floor. I looked around, the place was familiar to me and gave the sense of unexpected nostalgic vibes. The scent of the mud and the early morning freshness, the hymn like voices all around me, the passing sunlight through the greens made their way to me.

-----!-------
Opened my eyes, I saw myself sitting at the seat next to 'veeru'. The seat opened to the window on my right to the White Building, why is it a little hazzy.

I heard a voice again. The voice did make some sense to me. It kept on saying the weird known thing repeatedly.

Cu + H2SO4 -- > CuSO4 + H2O

-----!-------
Next I knew I was running to a field. I ignored something important that made me and others proud. The field spread out to 2 Huge Football grounds, with a cricket pitch in between. The left end of the field was covered with 4 volleyball courts and the right end was lush green forest like area, quite unknown to me.

To my precise knowledge, the dial of my watched showed 11:30 right before the lunch. One of the known shouted," We got the volleyball, Gandhi , you take the field. Hold the center position for me.". Nikhil, Parth, Kunjal, Aga, Dhanil, Gandhi, Shanth, Veeru, Rahul, Ashwin were spotted smiling as I observed them from the distance.....

Next I knew, It was early morning in Bangalore. My Bed alarm was the villain of the story. :)

Numbers on Papers

[Leaving this line blank]
.... oops did i just waste some with the dots here. My goodness, thanks to 'Blog spot', i can waste more space ;).
[Sounds like some traditional advertisement]

[Evening..]
Busy with the day schedule of work, you return home to give some time to yourself. On the shelf you find a number waiting for you to reach. On the back of your mind, you see the happiness attached with this number, just when it gets to you, it traps you, haunts you.


Does it all answer to your quietness? How many of these numbers do you have in your pasts? How do you manage to return it back to them?


"Huufff ... 23rd of April, so soon. The time is now (depressed)".


[Few Moments later]
Teant Teant!!! Teant Teant!!!
[A Text Message on your mobile, similar to one below]


Dear Customer,
Payment for your
Credit Card XXXX-XXXX-
XXXX-1234,has been
confirmed.
Total Amount Due: 12,xxx Rs/-
Minimum Amount Due: 7xx Rs/-
Amount Paid: 6,xxx Rs/-
[EOM]

Secret

Curiosity, eagerness are just taste of few moments right before exploring the secrets. Everyone posses this. Its the girl/guy next door that you know since ages, family member(s), the one you love. No one is an open book. Believe me, you have a secret and even this author does.

The point i want to prove is that everything that we hear starts from a BIG SECRET and then it takes a stage of a rumor or a fact. This blog is out of both.

If I tell you a secret right now, how could i count on you. How could I know that it will be safe with you. How could i end up trusting you when i know that its going to lead to massive issues between us. What if that secret is so heavy on you that you probably thought not knowing it in the first case was better.
But you still want to know. You still want to take your chances. You still want to get into an argument or probably fight with me for it.

What is it that drives you to push on a Secret? Is it this statement, 'If I tell you a secret right now...'

Relax, go back in time and think: How many secrets of yours have really been a secret? Where is the fault?

Figure it out yourself...
You will get the answer within you. See, Now that is a secret.

#3353

Its been a while for me to scribble in this place. So thought might as well take a 180 degree turn from my topic and write a true story that i witnessed today morning. As like usual days, I take auto-rickshaw from my place to office,big thanks to my laziness and not to blame my company to keep flexi timings.

The daily fare from my home to office is some 70 odd figure. But to my notice I always end up paying more. Few days back, I paid some 20 bucks extra for the faulty meter that guy had or it was expected there.

What i witnessed today I wanted to let this out and basically ask some questions to you. Today, as always, i was late by 5 mins. A usual walk from my house to Omega Health care to board an auto from there.


[Omega Health Care]
Me :Outer Ring Road
Auto Rickshaw1 : 1.5 meter
Me: I commute daily and i pay on meter
Auto Rickshaw1: No, 1.5 final


[Moved to the next auto behind, the auto rickshaw driver looked a aged man and i asked him the same question.To my surprise, he agreed on first go... good from me till now].

[Near Junction 100 m away]
Driver: Sir, Pay me 20 rupees extra
Me: You are suppose to mention this to me right before I board it.
Driver: Sir, I understand, but there are problems in my family
Me (sternly): Everyone has problems. Everyone goes through the problems.

Driver: My Daughter is Ill.

I kept quite. He continued.

Driver: There is something to do with liver I guess. I am in such a condition right now that i dont even have 300 Rupees.

[I remembered as everyday i ended up paying more, I can manage this time as well and agreed to pay him 20 more.I opened my bag, reached for my music player to relax over the morning with some good music. ]

[At Old Airport's crossing - 6 Km from my destination]

[The Rickshaw guy looked back]
Driver: Sir, I was hired as a Driver in a family. It seems every bad things happen to me only.

[A thought rushed through my mind. This statement was not so strange to me after all.]

Driver(cont.): Today morning, I thought i could ask them for help. but to my surprise they have left for Delhi this morning. His Mother had a heart attack. Bad Times come to me only.
Sir please help me.

[I felt a bit uncomfortable as i have already been through this situation once and ended up loosing more than gaining, and trust was a major issue. Confused me as always.]

Me: I think everything will take its time to mend. Have Faith in god. He's there to help you.


[*The Turnaround (Again) ...4 Km from the destination]

Driver: Its just the matter of 300 Rupees. Sir, Please see if you could help.

[This time when he looked back he was broken. A tear had dropped off his eyes and..]
Driver(cont.): I gave all my strength to my wife at home and... i am 67 years old, i wish i could do something more... but now i dont have enough strength.

[Turned back]

[I had time to think. I had already done a mistake of helping a stranger. Should i give it another shot or should i stick to my experience and forget all this that ever existed.]

[Confused me took out my wallet and check the money that i had. Since its almost end of month and mostly, No saving I took out 174 Rupees]

Me: This is 174 Rupees. This is maximum i can do right now.
[By saying this i handed him the money 2 Km before the destination.]
Me(cont.): What's the name of your daughter?
Driver(Immidiate Answer): Razia, Razia Sultan. With love, we call her Razu.

[I felt good hearing her name. :)]

[At Destinaiton, I got out of the rickshaw and told him].

Me: Don't weak out. Have faith in god.
[He said 'thank you' in normal Indian tradition of 'Namaste'].

By saying this... I walked to my office...

His autorickshaw number was 3353. Which i could never forget.

------- End of Story---------

There are few questions which I want to ask you.
Question1: Was I right?
Question2: What would you have done?
Question3: What would have confused you?
Question4: Do you think this was true?
Question5: If your answer is yes, What would have been the ultimate barrier to cross?

Thanks for looking into it,
Piyush

I was thinking to jot down some of the items for my wish list which definately included loads of electronics gadgets. The price was totaled up to some unexpectedly huge some and my pocket had none, so where to turn, is a piece of advice which i will be stating in this blog. Yes my friend you at the right Super market ' Chinese Trade-ins..

History(yawn... ZZzzz..zzZzZ.zzz ): This is one useless piece of shit.. who the fuck wants to know the history of their selling, all we are interested in some cheap deals and in return some stuff / Gadgets( in my case ) which can entertain me for 6 month....

Lets just say its like in our luck, since the time you got yourself booked for this blog, had you been using any chinese stuff, trust me , it would have either been in ICU(Intensive Care Unit) or already dead.

It just takes 14 Seconds i garuntee you 14 Seconds for a chinese stuff to reach that state
I am not kidding, I am so not kidding....

Just have a look At this



Apart from all this these Chinese products can be Fatal too

Poisonous Toothpaste: The FDA recently found that several low-priced toothpastes imported from China contained diethylene glycol, which poisons the liver and kidneys and depresses the central nervous system.


I would say make up your mind buy cheap and so Not Chinese..


on small note Of Good Bye .. here is some awesome Pic of Chinese Menu







And So Obviously The Food Menu All So Complicated ;)

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